Words From The Soul

Death is always present as much as we try to ignore it to block it from our minds it always manages to sneak up on us. Can you ever really prepare for death? Even when you know it’s coming, when it has been made blatantly clear that you are going to lose someone you love can you ever really be ready...

I awoke uneasy and restless with the overwhelming feeling that every aspect of my life is wrong.

It’s as though I have been cast in a role I am so unqualified and unsuited for the only option is to run away. I wonder how many of those around me see the fraud I am, how many have picked up on my misq...

Three more sleeps until Mr Friends-with-benefits is back and my body craves him. Thoughts of his naked body consume my dreams and I find myself counting down the days. I awake to photos of his hard body and instantly want him; Words of what he will do with me stick in my head all day. He does it ver...

 There is nothing quite like meeting someone for the first time and feeling instantly comfortable, for a moment you begin to question if you have known them your whole life. 

Familiarity builds and you begin to reveal things about yourself you have kept silent for years. They manage to open you up ...

He reads me like a book, highlighting each footnote I try to hide in the finest print. He’s not the first. I used to think I was hard to read a mysterious coy creature who kept all her details hidden. No one is as mysterious as they think they are. He pointed out each fake smile I would try to argue...

I said to myself I wouldn’t write about him but I can hardly focus on anything else. He does this though. He fills my head and swims through my memories, he is scattered all through my past. I see his marks stitched into the fabric of my mind.

He has been a fixed point in time for the past seven ye...

I scare easily. It’s happened too many times before to not be wary. It starts off simply the meaningful glances, holding me tighter and X’s. I am not an XO kind of girl looking through my texts you will struggle to find them especially to someone I am sleeping with. X’s blur things they take a norma...

Some people say money burns a hole in their pocket. For me its new lingerie; it sets my sex drive on fire.

A shopping spree at Bras and Things has left me aching for a night of passion. Mr friends-with-benefits has returned to work for four weeks. I want to spend the night teasing him with photos o...

One of the many Ben's, the one who broke me a year ago “The Virgin”. The one who a week after my birthday recovering from Bronchitis broke up with me over comic books. (Well it wasn’t really about the comic books but that’s a story for another time) Sitting at the kitchen bench my housemate the “Dom...

Hickeys. Seriously who gives hickeys anymore?

“You bruise easily.” He traces his fingers over the bruises on my neck and lightly kisses them.  

“You need to be gentler.”

2 days later and here we are again wrapped up in his sheets exhausted from a night of too little sleep.

Exhausted at work I pl...

And yet here I am on my 23^rd birthday in bed with another Ben, this is what my 5^th or 6^th Ben. What is it about that name that I can’t refuse? Uncomplicated men I said. A man who has only separated from his wife 3 weeks ago was not quite what I had in mind.

There are no walls. Giving his affection ...