They don’t tell you that grief hits harder on the days you thrive.

That on days the sun feels the sweetest, you will ache to have them there beside you to feel it’s warmth. 

You never completely move on from a loss, you simply learn to step forward. 

What I wouldn’t give to have even just 5 minutes with you now. To hear your voice and feel your touch. 

As my life blossoms around me, I yearn to ask your advice and hear your praise. 

There is not a doubt in my mind of your pride, but some days I ache for the tangible, some days you feel so far. 

As the waves of grief ebb and flow, I open myself up to feel it, I allow myself to be vulnerable, to succumb to its flow. 

For I know these waves well now, they will not drown me. 

So today as grief calls me to feel it rawly, I will share my vulnerability with you all, there is deep beauty in honesty, there is healing found within the shadows. 

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I am miss you today. I am missing you everyday, but today the distance seems insurmountable, today I ache for your arms.